First and foremost, PLEASE love each other. Second, talk to your children about bullying. Third, if you, yourself are a bully, stop it. NOW. You have no idea how deeply your words can cut like a knife! Those wounds may not be visible, but oftentimes they last longer than anything physical ever could…
This morning all of the parents of my daughter’s middle school received an email that the school had been informed by police that an 8th grade student had died. They gave the name of the boy, but did not release the cause. I work with another parent of another middle-schooler and we were both shaken from this news, not knowing the person ourselves but imagining what the parents and family and friends must be going through to lose someone so young!
A little while later I got a text from Morrin’s boyfriend letting me know that she was very upset and wanted to come home. He told me that it was a good friend of his and that he had committed suicide. When I picked her up, it was all I could do to not suffocate her with hugs and kisses while I led her out to the car; her puffy eyes looked so tired and sad. She just turned to me and said “Mom, I just can’t cry anymore; my eyes are dry and they hurt,” she croaked as her lip trembled. As it turns out, she had told me about this young man on several occasions and bragged about how nice he was and that had offered to help her with her homework before they even knew each other.
He had apparently taken his own life after being bullied by students because he was openly bisexual. Their close circle of friends didn’t care and were supportive of his decision to be himself rather than pretending to be someone else, but it didn’t go far beyond that. She has been telling me about what some of the other kids were saying immediately after the announcement and I am sick with the reminder of just how cruel kids can be. One comment was “Well, one less gay, right?” and another boy just laughed. That one got his ass kicked. Not that I condone violence, but maybe he’ll think again before being such an insensitive little prick…
She is beside herself with grief right now and has been telling me about all of the people who were with her in the library that were all very much affected by his death. Students and teachers alike, he was loved by so many! She told me about all of the strangers that she had just hugged and held while they offered each other comfort in a time of such dreadful despair.
I wonder, if he had known how many cared for him and would be affected by his death, if he still would have felt that there was no way out? Were there “warning signs” that he was contemplating suicide? Morrin said that someone called the police and told them that they heard him talking about doing it. Did they call right away or had he mentioned it more than once? Did the police react right away? So many questions that may have to go unanswered – forever.
This is a true tragedy, and sadly it is becoming more and more common with kids in this age group; a fact that scares the shit out of me with two girls this age! I have to be on constant alert of the way that they act, speak about themselves and others, and whether they are engaging as usual or if there are changes that I should pick on. I believe them to be fairly happy “normal” (yeah right – not with me as a parent) kids with lots of friends. But, from what I am told, so was this boy. So what do we look for, as parents, to make sure that we really know what is going on with our kids? To make sure that we don’t get the same news about our kids or that, God forbid, they were one of the people who bullied and pushed someone else to the point of no longer wanting to deal?
My heart is breaking a little more with every tear of hers that I wipe away and every shudder of her body as I hold her close and try to console her. She is asleep for a bit and that is allowing me relieve some of my own grief with this post.
Bullying is not something that simply goes away. Whether you think your kid can “handle it” or not, it still needs to be discussed and if they are being harassed you need to do something to show your support and not add to their stress. Build a trust with them so they know that they can come to you with anything! Please!! Encourage them to speak up about others who they feel are being bullied; I don’t know all of the facts about this particular situation, but surely someone knew something!?! As uncomfortable as some topics may make you, it takes courage to approach a parent about many things. They need to know that you’re not going to brush them aside or blow things out of proportion. Most importantly, let them know on a daily basis how much you love them and hug them often. No matter what.
Please note: This post is not intended to be a factual account of events, as I am getting most of my information from grieving teenagers who just lost someone they love. The purpose of this post is a statement of how it is affecting my family at this moment and most importantly, as an urging to parents to engage with their children on a regular basis. Bullying is a real problem that has been around forever; ignoring does not make it go away and speaking out could save a life.